The beginning.

So, this is where the journey begins. I will start by saying that I am a Christian, and some of the things I say may offend one who does not believe in the Christian God. I am not sorry about this. I believe scripture and will not shy away from it for anyone’s comfort. Secondly, I want to say that I plan on addressing some sensitive and at times controversial topics. I will be doing this with great caution, but the purpose of this page is to share, and although much of what I say may be difficult to read, I assure you it was harder to write, and is only being shared because I feel it is beneficial for myself and others. Nothing I share here is intended to hurt other people or portray me as some kind of saint. I have done many things I am not proud of and hurt many people in the past. I will be sharing with you because I feel that only with open and honest communication can we come to understand one another fully. Additionally, I will be sharing a lot about myself, because I want to bring glory to God for who He is, and what He has, and is continuing to do. If you don’t like what I have to say, I’m sorry, you don’t have to read my posts. Of course, I hope you will read it. I hope it can start a dialog, and through that all of us can grow in character and in God. If you want to discuss things I have to say, I am more than happy to do that, so long as respect for one another is maintained and conversations remain civil.

So how did I end up here?

Well, about four months ago I followed the Lords leading and set up a twitter page. I know that sounds strange but it’s true. I honestly didn’t know why I was led to set up a twitter page at first, but I felt God was calling me to do so, so I did. It may not sound like much to you but setting up a twitter page was a huge step for me. I have been away from the online social world for almost ten years and I really didn’t want to go back. Additionally, I have long had a negative view of twitter. I would say, “your life is not important enough that others care what you have to say” or “twitter is for self-absorbed people looking for validation.” Yet, the call that God put on me to set up the page was very strong, so I took the step and figured I would see what happened. When I dove into the online social world I found it to be a very positive experience. I still think that some on there are self-absorbed, but there are also some wonderful people I have been blessed to have met through twitter. People who have shared with me many of Gods great truths, and who have helped me through the current storm I am in. I say all of that to say this, Twitter is a wonderful tool, so long as it remains a tool, and not one’s life. Yet, twitter does not allow me to share as I feel God is calling me to share. Simply put, I am a long-winded person. I tend to take 50 words to say what can be said in 5. So, after several months of praying I now feel the Lord calling me to setup a blog so I can share with others using a media that allows me to use more than 140 characters at a time.

What to expect.

Although I have not worked out the exact nature of how I am going to do this yet, I hope to focus this page into three categories. The first is my life and lessons from my life. This will include what I am up to, where I am struggling, where I am growing, how God is working in my life, and what I am working towards. The second category will be much more theological. I hope to take some time and look at scripture, write about what passages are really saying, and offer some real life practical applications for the passage. I will also be offering at times, what I hope are inspirational theological teachings from some of the Christian “greats”. The last category is probably going to be the most difficult part, and also the most important part. I will be addressing domestic abuse. Domestic abuse is a plague on our world, and I feel like the more people who are bring attention to this problem, the better chance we have as a society to address it in practical ways. I have experienced firsthand the pain of domestic abuse. I have seen the scars that it leaves, the broken marriages it causes, and have worked very hard to understand the causes of abuse. I want to be very clear, although I will be spending a lot of time talking about what leads to abuse, I am in no way condoning it. Abuse is wrong at every level and needs to be called out for what it is, clearly, and unapologetically. Nevertheless, I believe that although there are some people who are just evil, I also believe that there are many good people, who through terrible choices, and unresolved issues become abusers. These are the people I will mostly be focusing on. Not because they are more value than those who are abused, certainly not. We must always attend to the victims of abuse first and foremost. But I believe that until we as a society get to the causes of abuse, nothing is going to really change. Until we actually look at the causes of abuse we are simply putting a Band-Aid on a broken arm. For those who have been abused, my heart truly goes out to you. I want to be clear, I am not attempting to minimize the pain and suffering you endured. With all of my heart I pray nothing but healing and peace for you. I pray that God takes hold of your abuser and brings real lasting change to their lives, as only He can. I know from firsthand experience that this can happen, people can change when they submit to God, and I pray that your abuser does this, and with time the relationship may be restored. The main part of this category will be excerpts from a work in progress. I have been blessed to be part of writing a book on domestic abuse. This book is a long way from completion, and the parts that are shared are just the first drafts, yet I will be sharing them because I hope to aid in the conversation about this growing epidemic. I want to be very clear about this, I am not an expert on this matter, those who I am working with are the experts, and what is shared is offered with the hopes that it may help shed light onto this terrible affliction which effects every social and cultural element of the world and is destroying many marriages including Christian ones. So please take a few minutes and look around. I hope the things I share will be uplifting and maybe we can grow in Christ together.

Who am I

The name says it all. I am a broken man from Alaska. A Christians saved by grace, redeemed through love, and set free by Jesus Christ my Lord. I am a fool who has made a mess of his life, a recovering alcoholic, a former military member, a suffer of PTSD, a son of God, a broken hurting man, a husband although to my dismay most likely not for much longer, a student, and someone who has many hopes and dreams. I have been a builder, a mechanic, a security guard, a baker, a painter, and many other things. Really, I am unique, and at the same time could be anybody else. I could be the guy living next door, or the man on the corner. In my uniqueness I am me, but my struggles are not unique to me alone. I am a lot of things, to a lot of people. Many of the things I am I’m proud of, while some I’m not proud of, yet it is who I am. I’m also not the man I was seven months ago, and I have a wonderful woman named Melody and God to thank for that. I am a broken man, a hurting man, a rejoicing man, a healing man, and at times a stupid man. But beyond all of that I am a Christian man. I am committed to the Lord Jesus Christ, something that I couldn’t honestly say six months ago, yet today I am on fire for God, and have committed myself to becoming the man He has designed me to be. Nothing more, and nothing less. So welcome to me, I hope you will join me on this journey, and may the Lord be with you, and bless you all of your days.